The Other Side of Me

And so, the conducting exam is done! We have been rushing day and night just to get the scores ready for weeks! Reprint, redo, re-correct it so many times that most of my course mates spend hundreds just on printing the scores out for the musician to play. As for me, I almost cut down the whole tree just to print my scores!

We’re required to arrange two songs in 4 weeks on my arrangement, ” It’s Now or Never” and “Knock 3 Times.”. The band will be playing whatever that has been arrange. Sounds fun huh? Oh well, it’s not! Our lecturer didn’t manage to check our scores and there’s so many last minute changes. This is where I feel stress and tired. It’s just like, all this thing never come to an end.

Last week, we had our practice with the band. I was very nervous. I mean.. really really nervous. I depend on myself so much that I forgot that there’s someone up there who’s name is Jesus is waiting for me to call unto Him.

Call to Me and I will answer you, and I will tell you great and mighty things, which you do not know.’ Jeremiah 33.3

So I did not telephone God. I thought I could do it with my own might and strength. Guess what? The first practice was like hell.. I couldn’t start the song with the band. Lecturer even make fun of me in front of every one. I felt so down and discourage. The worst thing that happen most of the musician laughed at me. That hurt the most…

I couldn’t take it and cried. Every time when I look at the scores, it just remind me about the whole band laughing at me. Yes, laughing at my arrangement. So on that night after practice, I went to the hillside in USM, sat down alone in the middle of the night, thinking and asking God, why? why? why?

Some how, I just realize that all this while, I’ve been placing my trust and faith in myself and myself only. So sad.. :( So I took up Unmerited Favor book, written by Pastor Joseph Prince and began reading.. Felt so encouraged. It’s like I’m being boost up by His love that is exceedingly abundantly more than enough!
One other thing that encourage me the most is a tweet by my leader saying..
“why do we think that we can do it ourselves when Jesus offer his holy spirit as your helper? Don’t pai seh(shy). Let him!”

Oh well, that simple sentence just made my day!
We had two practices before exam. The second practice, I began to trust in the Lord for He will provide all my needs. The music didn’t go smoothly. But somehow, It’s better that the previous practice.

I’ve been praying and seeking the Lord this few days. I keep telling my friend, Jesus that He’s gonna walk with me and never leave me alone. For the past few days, I’ve been worrying and I couldn’t sleep. But after praying, every thing change. I sleep like a baby today that I was almost late for class!

Now, I should be feeling nervous right? But you know what? I never experience God’s peace that’s so “yeng!” It’s indescribable! I wasn’t feeling scared or nervous that my hands turn cold.. In fact, I feel hot!! haha!! I keep telling myself that His grace is sufficient for me!

My conducting exam today wasn’t that bad. Although there’s some mistakes, but over all, I guess everyone enjoyed playing my song. They even cheer for the singer at the end! Which tells me that everyone enjoyed playing and my singer did his best!

What I’ve learn in this exam?? Well, I can say 10% of conducting stuff BUT 90% of having faith and trust in the Lord!
Peeps! If you’re facing hard time, remember the tweet that my friend post!

So, it’s my big day today huh?? It used to be very big when I was much much younger. Having parties with family members with big cake and many candles. But as we grow more mature, things change. :)
It’s SUPPOSE to be my big day. But it turn out to be a day where I cried. Seriously.. Not because I’m touched by what my friends or parents did to me. But it’s because I was too stressed out. Conducting exam is in few days time. I’m so afraid to rehearse with the band. To get my arranging scores done, I’ve place so much effort day and night. And so, I passed up my assignment today at 7.30am. But was rejected. So I have to redo everything before 1pm. I rushed like mad as I only have an hour break for lunch.

Finally, I manage to pass up on time. Felt so relieved after passing up and I really hope that I do not have to see it again! After passing up, I was so ready for my choir exam. Standing outside the room, ready to sing out! And guess what? My professor pass by the music room and saw us. He hand out our assignment back and ask us to recheck over again!! I was so pissed off. I’ve been doing it day and night and it’s still not over yet!

My mood just went down. I couldn’t sing well in exam. My lecturer was like..” what’s wrong with u today? Do you know that you can get an A for this?” I told him I’m stressed out. And he asked me why. So I told him what happen, I can’t believe that I actually cry in front of him! When I walk out from the room, my friends thought that my lecturer was the one who makes me cry so he quickly tell my friends that it wasn’t his fault. haha.. funny lecturer..

And so, I quickly settle it and say goodbye..
I just can’t wait to go home and have good dinner!
Guess what I found?
This…

yes, flowers! I receive it almost every year! And it made my day! Love it to the max!
And a bucket of Haagen Dazs is my wish come true! Ice cream that I always wanted to get!

Even thought today was a stressful day, but I manage to handle it with the grace of God. I don’t have to feel shy if He wants to work in me! Let He do all the job! My job is to believe and trust in Him! Amen! :D

Hey Peeps..
As usual, I’ve been super duper duper busy with so many things. I’m not gonna let me memory go down the drain because of my assignments. I wanna spent some time sharing with you guys what the music students have been doing today.
We have done our best in playing. Scarifying our sleep to practice early in the morning before class starts.
We had our performance in one of the cafe in usm. I believe the songs that we present is pleasing to the customer’s ears.. At first, a few of my friends are worried that they will sing out of tune and customers will vomit out while eating.. haha.. But I think we’re not that bad.. :P
I wish I can show you a video of us performing but sadly, I didn’t bring my camera along.
Here’s a picture of us..

A credit to whoever who took this picture. :)
We’re in checkered shirt.. which was my idea! :D

It’s not as easy performing in front of people. Some of my friends freak out and play wrongly while others couldn’t get the pulse right. But over all, I think we did out very best. At first, I thought it shouldn’t be a problem for me to face the crowd as I’ve been playing in church for quite some time. But when it comes to playing the violin, I can’t believe I shiver! Oh well, my hands are not used with playing the violin in front of the crowd I guess. haha…
It’s the third time we perform in front of the crowd. We wish that we don’t have to perform any more for the coming semester. :D

Last friday, we had a gathering for campus and youth on wii friday.
It’s great to combine the campus and youth students together..
There was lame and fun games which I believe everyone enjoyed themselves. :)
Every wii friday, there’s always a theme where everyone will wear something cool and outstanding. This time, the theme is checkered night. The best attire will get a gift. I can see that some of them even made their on checkered shirt. Creative!
Any way, I manage to take a picture with the best attire man! haha…

Bomoh..

They are not couples! They are siblings from a different parents! :D

Oh well, that’s all I have for now! :)

I went to KL last week and I saw an art shop where they sell color felt. So I decided to buy some and do something out of it.

Went shopping to so many malls and saw a shop where they only sell dooodolls! I always want a dooodoll keychain but it seems to be so expensive!

So mom says.. “Why not you do it yourself??”

Not a bad idea! 

I manage to finish one doll by an hour! I didn’t know that it’s so easy! 

I made a red one for my dad, he said, “Eee… I don’t like red.. And what on earth is that creature is that??!!”  Nice what.. it’s a cute creature k? 

So I decided to give it to my mom instead.. She said, “This want very ugly.. I want the dark blue wan..”  No!! Dark blue is mine! 

Oh well, looks like I’ll just give the couple dolls to my parents as their valentine gift then! :)

Oh, talking about valentine’s day, how was yours?? I had a wonderful time with my leader. We planned to hang out ever since January but due to our schedule, it didn’t really fit well. So we decided to hang out on a tuesday, which was a valentine’s day. We didn’t know that tuesday was a valentine’s day till that day! So, he became my accident valentine…haha!! We ordered couple meal coz it’s much cheaper. It’s kidda weird.. don’t you think?? Oh well, we had a great time together. All the laughs and encouragement just boost me up before I start my sem! :)

It’s sem break. What do you expect me to do?? Nothing. This is the time to hang out with friends! :D

I can say, I’m tired of Queensbay. So, I took my brothers from a different mother to round the island. Half the island I mean. :D

Start our day with MCD breakfast. I forgotten that it’s the ‘cina’ festival on the 9th day. Hardly any stores are open. 

The first place we went was Botanical garden. Before that, we pass by all those big big house that area.. Wah!~~ Saw one house that really looks like a castle! 

It’s been a while since I step into botanical garden. It’s great to visit there once a while. So, we went to the Japanese Garden..

We took some crazy pictures!

Amitabha

Looks like Daniel is the horse huh??

‘Ah Kuah’s’ (homosexual)

*fly*

‘Ah yak! Missed!’

One more time!

Haiii Yakkk!!!! *fly~~~*

Teehee!

Daniel, I pity you..

Next stop! Straits Quay! Yeah, pronounce it as Straight Kuih.. haha!!

Had Fruuze Yoghurt Ice Cream. I thought it’s better than Tutti Fruiti. But it’s so sour that I have to close my eyes when I have my first bite! >.-

No toppings cost us RM12.50. Expensive lor!!!

The three of us! :D

Next stop, Gurney Plaza. I thought we could get something to eat there. But it seems all the food didn’t please the two boys.. so we take a walk instead.

Dooodolls!

Sponge bob! Square pants!

Alvin and Simone~~

Next stop, Pulau Tikus Market for lunch!!~~ Wanted to have Mee Goreng at Bangkok Lane but it was closed. So we went for Wan Tan Mee. Too bad that the Wan Tan Mee is without Wan Tan. Waited for so long and didn’t get a single wan tan?? At least, inform us that’s you have ran out of wan tan lah.. too much lah..

Tummy still demanding?? Time to have some desserts in Penang Road!

Where’s my green balls in my Ice Kacang??!!

Next stop! Pet Stop in Macalister Road. It’s nice to see all those pet in the pet store. Adorable puppies and cats. Of course, there’s hamsters too. Feel like having one but it’s full of responsibilities!

Oh well, we can go further but Dom has an appointment after that. So, we shall call it a day. 

It’s an awesome day with my brothers from a different mother! A day I won’t forget! Thanks guys!

Hey Peeps! Happy Chinese New Year!

It’s the same old route again during chinese new year. Every year, people get so excited baking cookies, shop for hours just to get the right clothes, clean the house to get ready for the big day, enjoy reunion and collect red packets.

But this year, it seems that I didn’t really do all that great stuff. I didn’t enjoy all those things like I used to do every year. Is it because I’ve grown up and I don’t enjoy it any more or is it because I just finish semester and all I wanna do is to sit down and relax?? 

Oh well, this year’s CNY is just the same as last year. It’s just that I DIDN’T DO ANY SHOPPING!!! That’s so sad..   :( 

So, I’ve been thinking…

What’s next after CNY?? Eat, sleep, watch movie till semester starts again. With this, it leads me to another question in my life. What’s next after Uni? I’ve just finish 3 semester. Another 3 more to go and it’s done. What should I do after this?? I don’t really have a direction yet. Looks like I need to set a path which will lead me to some where and trust God for a direction.. 

Well, that’s all I have for now. Once again, to all my chinese friends, Gong Xi Fa Chai! 

Professor : You are a Christian, aren’t you, son ?

Student : Yes, sir.

Professor: So, you believe in GOD ?

Student : Absolutely, sir.

Professor : Is GOD good ?

Student : Sure.

Professor: Is GOD all powerful ?

Student : Yes.

Professor: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to GOD to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn’t. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?

(Student was silent.)

Professor: You can’t answer, can you ? Let’s start again, young fella. Is GOD good?

Student : Yes.

Professor: Is satan good ?

Student : No.

Professor: Where does satan come from ?

Student : From … GOD …

Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?

Student : Yes.

Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it ? And GOD did make everything. Correct?

Student :Yes

Professor: So who created evil ?

(Student did not answer.)

Professor: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?

Student : Yes, sir.

Professor: So, who created them ?

(Student had no answer.)

Professor: Science says you have 5 Senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son, have you ever seen GOD?

Student : No, sir.

Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your GOD?

Student : No , sir.

Professor: Have you ever felt your GOD, tasted your GOD, smell your GOD? Have you ever had any sensory perception of GOD for that matter?

Student : No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.

Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?

Student : Yes.

Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?

Student : Nothing. I only have my faith.

Professor: Yes, faith. And that is the problem Science has.

Student : Professor, is there such a thing as heat?

Professor: Yes.

Student : And is there such a thing as cold?

Professor: Yes.

Student : No, sir. There isn’t.

(The lecture theatre became very quiet with this turn of events.)

Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.

(There was pin-drop silence in the lecture theater.)

Student : What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?

Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?

Student : You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light. But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and its called darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?

Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man ?

Student : Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.

Professor: Flawed ? Can you explain how?

Student : Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good GOD and a bad GOD. You are viewing the concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing.

Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Professor: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.

Student : Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The Professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going.)

Student : Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor. Are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?

(The class was in uproar.)

Student : Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?

(The class broke out into laughter. )

Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?

(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable.)

Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on faith, son.

Student : That is it sir … Exactly ! The link between man & GOD is FAITH. That is all that keeps things alive and moving.